I'm stressed to the max right now. Everything today has just built into this towering wave, the kind that never quite falls but keeps getting higher so you know that, when it does lose the battle to gravity, you're screwed. Basically. And gravity is scheduled to fail next week.
It makes the fragments of sunshine so much sweeter, when they come.
I just got off the phone with my little sister. She's precious, you know. This wicked sense of humor wrapped in blue-grey eyes and a careless disregard for convention and rules, all in one petite package. Despite all the fights we've had, and are probably going to have in the future, I've always admired her for being real in ways that very few people dare to be. She's prickly, but under that is this incredibly intriguing person. I always feel like there's something new to learn about her. Endlessly fascinating.
She called me tonight. First, that's just a warm spot in my soul, because...because. She did it. And she listened to the sordid recitation of my week, and then she told me about her life, which wasn't much better than mine. She let me in. Just a little, but enough.
I like to catch those moments and savor them, hold them close like a hug from three thousand miles away. We haven't had too many of those, but they're getting more frequent, and I'm just so glad. Because...because. Just because she's so important to me.
I had this line running through my head just before she called. "But nothing's going right...and everything's a mess...and no one likes to be alone." It was so good to be reminded that, even if it's true, and it is...I'm not.
2 comments:
Aww. My sister and I share a similar relationship, I think.
I'm glad.
Well, I can't say that I have ever had that kind of relationship with anyone, but your sister makes me think of Chris Dant lol.
See, everyone sees the cynical and sarcastic side of Chris, which he can be really funny, but it makes a lot of people think he's mean.
When in reality, he's a really nice guy :)
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